Last night I had a friend over, and she is awesome it is just too hard. She knows what is going on, but I don't think that she exactly understands the extent of it. I did fine last night when I ate with her, but this morning we went out to breakfast and it was just way to hard she told me that I should really start eating, and then when I starting to cut my food she laughed and asked me what in the world I was doing. I know that she cares and she doesn't realize how hard it is. It just sucks!
I hate being so concerned with thoughts of food all the time, but I have honestly forgotten what it is like to not live like this. I am always thinking of numbers and now it isn't just what I am eating it is also with what other people around me are eating. It is like it never stops.
School on monday at this point seems like it is going to be absolute hell. Hopefully something good will happen I am just not feeling very positive right now :/
it gets better... i know...my words mean nothing right now but it really does. it will get better :)
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